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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Well I'm the guest blogger today. My Aunt Julie has been hanging in there as well as my Uncle Dave. They both have been at the hospital day an night since saturday. Roseann stayed with him one night at the hospital and my Aunt Julies and John her nephew has been with him since. She don't want to leave his side. My Uncle is in so much pain but I think because Aunt Julie promised she would take him home he is hanging in there. They Hospice is suppose to bring him home today. Lets pray he makes it.. That is where he wants to be is with family at home. Then I think our good Lord will take him home an we can then rejoice that he is where he is meant to be at this time in our lives. All we can do is pray and thank the good Lord we have had and still do have him in our lives. All we can do is enjoy every second that we have him with us. Uncle Al, Julie's mom an dad an I (Ellie) and more family will be coming in and spending Christmas with him. We love you all an Merry Christmas and have a safe an happy holiday.
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My Dear Beloved Uncle David,
ReplyDeleteI just heard that our Lord has called you home tonight. I cried when I got the call, selfishly because I wanted you to be here with us, and Aunt Julie. Then relizing that if keeping you here with us, meant even one more second of you in pain, then I wanted you to go! Go be with God, Uncle Dave, go spend Christmas with Jesus! Go fly with the Angels, and play golf on the clouds. I will see you again my beloved friend.
You fought the good fight, now Rest, and be free!
I will carry all of my fond memeories of you deep in my heart always. You were so good to me and I was blessed by that! I remember you always had time for me when I was a little girl. Taking me to get an ice cream, or play a game of kick ball! Giving me the extra change in your pocket or a candy bar, always making me feel special, and loved! Even when you were a teenager, you always found time for us little kids!
I thank you for that with all of my heart! I cherish those memeories, more than I can ever say. I have always seen God's love for me in you and in your actions. Your life by example, made us all want to be better people.
I can only imagine your beautiful smile when God said," Good work my faithful child, job well done!"
There is NO doubt in my mind that you are rewarded in heaven for all that you have been through.
I know that you left us KNOWING that you touched many lives and knowing that you were loved so much!
Please watch over us Uncle Dave and know that we will never forget you and that we already miss you so much!
God Speed!
Much love,
Mischel/ Micki
My Dear Beloved Uncle David,
ReplyDeleteI just heard that our Lord has called you home tonight. I cried when I got the call, selfishly because I wanted you to be here with us, and Aunt Julie. Then relizing that if keeping you here with us, meant even one more second of you in pain, then I wanted you to go! Go be with God, Uncle Dave, go spend Christmas with Jesus! Go fly with the Angels, and play golf on the clouds. I will see you again my beloved friend.
You fought the good fight, now Rest, and be free!
I will carry all of my fond memeories of you deep in my heart always. You were so good to me and I was blessed by that! I remember you always had time for me when I was a little girl. Taking me to get an ice cream, or play a game of kick ball! Giving me the extra change in your pocket or a candy bar, always making me feel special, and loved! Even when you were a teenager, you always found time for us little kids!
I thank you for that with all of my heart! I cherish those memeories, more than I can ever say. I have always seen God's love for me in you and in your actions. Your life by example, made us all want to be better people.
I can only imagine your beautiful smile when God said," Good work my faithful child, job well done!"
There is NO doubt in my mind that you are rewarded in heaven for all that you have been through.
I know that you left us KNOWING that you touched many lives and knowing that you were loved so much!
Please watch over us Uncle Dave and know that we will never forget you and that we already miss you so much!
God Speed!
Much love,
Mischel/ Micki
I don't know how to put in words exactly what I feel. Dave, I have come to Love you as A Dear Friend!! You and Julie opened up your Hearts and home to me 19 and a half years ago and I have felt like part of the family since day one! I will Miss your smile but I will always see it and feel it in my Heart! George and me will Miss you deeply. Please don't worry about Julie...we will keep an eye on her and be there whenever she needs Us! They always say the Good die young...Well they were Right! George and Me will Miss you and Love you Always and Forever!
ReplyDeletedad i know you are here with me and i wish i could of been there for you and mom to share your last minutes here on earth with us.you will have no more pain and as hard as it was for you to leave us here you are in a better place and will beable to watch over all of us.i will always love you and will always be there for mom.we will keep those traditions of going to visit and having your big fourth of july party.i know you do not want us to cry anymore and you want us to smile and be happy .it will take time for are broken hearts to mend,but know in our hearts we are smiling with you.we will always miss that smile and laughter of yours it will always be in our hearts and mind.im so sorry i couldnt be there and you know that it was breaking my heart not to be with you and mom. we will always miss you and always be thinking of you ,so rest in peace and know we will always take care of mom and be there for her when she needs us .you faught a tough battle and the lord was calling you home and you had to go.like a wise man once said if you love some one that much you shall set them free and they will return home to you again .so be free and we will see you again lots of love and kisses.love your little one always.
ReplyDeletei miss you...
ReplyDeleteOMG, almost a year ago already and it still doesn't seem true. You are still with us like your in the next room. Well truly you are you know. You will never leave us! Still it hurts and still I cry. I'm sorry I don't mean to but my heart is still hurting and missing you but then I do smile knowing that you ARE in a much better place than we are and some day we will all be together again and we will all live in peace. Oh well you must know Aunt Julie an I went to California!! What a trip an what a time we had. THANK YOU SO SO VERY MUCH AUNT JULIE. We had such a great time meeting up with Sandy and Dave, then visiting with Marvin. Well I know you know. You were there with us. How silly o me. Marvin saw you too. All we can do is pray for him now. I hope the Lord don't take him any time soon. But I know when its time for any of us you will be there with open arms and we can smile an know they too will be watching down on us as you do. Well good night for now. I will keep in touch, and next time I won't wait so long to write to you. Love ya, Talk to you soon. Ellie.
ReplyDeleteHey whats happenin your way. Missing you terriably today. Bad day for me emotionally but I'll be ok. Hope yor Thanksgiving was a wonderfull one watching all of us here. I'm so glad AJ had Kimmie, John, the kids an Uncle Al with her. Was going to go down but knew she would be ok with all of them. My Dave went to Fl to spend thanksgiving with his mom and step dad, He an Dallas went down together. Now that will be something for them to remember. I spent the day over at Mom and Dads, Stopped by Uncle Harolds and dropped off some thanksgiving dinner as I usually do for thanksgiving an christmas when he don't comeover to moms. Which as you know is most of the time but lately hes been coming thank goodness. Well I'm doing laundry. Its almost done. Was thinking about you and was having a bad day but now that I've talk to you I feel Much BETTER. LOVE YOU UNCLE DAVE. WISH YOU WERE HERE. Will talk to you soon. xxoo "Listing to your heart beat an what is it saying? "I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU"
ReplyDeleteMorning,thinking about you again. Don't understand. Thought about you alot befor but for some reason I'm drawn here. Maybe because it's gettin so close to your anniversary and I've been missing you terriable and need someone to talk to like I use to. Kimmie an them made it home ok. Took them 10hrs. Pretty crazy right but they made it home safe. Dave an Dallas are going to see Sandy and Dave later today in NC. They are making they're way back home. Sounds like they are having a good time thou. He spent Thanksgiving with his mom. I'm so glad he did. Well love you Uncle Dave,got to get going. I'll be seeing you. Talk to you later. Oh by the way how do you like the new nickname for Aunt Julie?? A.J. Not sure who or how it got started. Think Sandy started it but not sure. So when I say that you know I'm talking about Aunt JULIE, duh as if you didn't already know. Can't keep anything secret from you can we. LOL. LOve you! As AJ would say. "With God everything is possible without him nothing is." UNTIL LATER!!
ReplyDeleteHolidays are tough.......wish heaven had a phone....so I could hear your voice again. I thought of you today...but that's nothing new. I thought of you yesterday and days before that too. I think of you in silence and often speak your name. All I have are memories and pictures in a frame.YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY HEART.
ReplyDeleteWell Dave an Dallas still at Sandy an Dave' in NC. Should be heading out today for DC to see DAve's brother. AJ called the other day. Well you already know. Feb 2012 is the tentative date for Hawaii. Think its possible with Dave's job. He's been laid off since end of sept. Don't know how soon he'll get back to work and not sure if there is any extensions for him. Only have a year to save up for this. Do still have some e Stock in gold. Dave an I did what you and Bill said. We invested and hopefully it will pan out. HAHA, get it "pan out" (giggle) well have to laugh about something. Any way would like to see Marvin this summer (2011) if at all possible also. So I guess I have to make a choice or get a second job. Well U.Dave got to get going this morning. Exercise then get ready for work. Love ya an will keep you posted as to what we're going to do. Think I should just commit and Dave an I both go. We always do things seperate. REally stupid right. Will will let you know. LOVE YOU AND WILL TALK TO YOU LATER.
How ya doing today? Me, doing ok. Had two grandchildren stay with me last night. Got to call U.Harold. He wasn't feeling to good last night. Yea the two girls, Macalla an Julie kept me company last night. The boys should be home sometime today. Will be here I think around 6 or so. Hope an pray the roads stay clear for them. Coming back to much colder weather than when they left thats for sure. Well I don't know about Hawaii. Not that I don't want to go but I would like to go to California an visit with Marvin again in august. I can only afford so much but still haven't talked to Dave and of course we still haven't reached the peak with the gold yet so maybe we will make out on that who knows. I know you do but then again you can't come right out an tell me. Just give me some kind of sign. Bill says to hang on so thats what we are tring to do. Well just wanted to talk to you today. Guess I'll let you go for now. Love an and ttul. "With god everything is possible an with out him nothing is." LOVE YA UDAVE.
ReplyDeleteHey how you doing today u.Dave. I see ya hanging around here in the kitchen with me. Boy it's when I certainly needed you the most! Boy life if really tough sometimes. But I guess you just hang in there an things will work out. At least I'm hoping they do this time. Well I just wanted to stop in an say hi. Really needed you today so I do feel better. Love you an will talk to you soon again. Ellie
ReplyDeleteBoy, Looking at these pics. Sure doesn't seem that long ago. Feels like your still visiting with everyone an you will be home soon. It seems so serreal. And most of the time I can't believe it. And by the way thank you for being here with me allot this week. It certainly has been hard. My life doesn't seem like its getting better at the moment. I feel like its all crumbling down right now. I just thank god I have you to talk to. But you know you really have to be more direct when you tell me what I need to do. LOL. I know your doing your best and thats all any of us can do. Haven't been able to put a tree up this year. I know you would want all of us to carry on and celebrate Christmas for what it really is for but it's just really difficult to do that this year. With all thats going on right now it's just hard to get into the spirit of it all and with it being your 1st year anniversary, which I might say really doesn't seem so. I love you U.Dave. Miss you so much an sometimes I wish I could go back in time and have all those minutes and seconds I had with you all over again. To hear your laugh, watch you dance, see you party and just enjoy life everyday. Well as you would say. IT IS WHAT IT IS. God does have a plan doesn't he? Who are we to question it. Well I'll let you go for now. Thanks for hangin with me!! LOVE YOU AND WILL TALK TO YOU AGAIN SOON.
ReplyDeleteHi Uncle Dave. Happy anniversary. Can't believe it. Of course couldn't sleep last night. Going to call Aunt Julie today as I'm sure everyone else in the family will be calling. I hope she is doing better than me. I'm sorry but I just can't seem to stop crying. I try not to show anyone else. I try to be strong for them. Well got to get ready for work. Will be going to Mass today. I'm sure I will feel better after I go to Mass. I LOVE YOU. MISS YOU SO MUCH. Will talk to you later. Love you. Ellie
ReplyDeleteHi Uncle Dave. Love you very much. Miss you terriable. Today was such a hard day! It just really doesn't seem like your gone but I think the reality of it is hitting home a bit. I think thats why it was such a hard day. But I certaily did feel ya here this morning and I want to thank you. Dave an I both were thanking you. We knew you answered our prayers, well with Gods help too. Mass was good today also. I felt better afterwards thats for sure. I'm glad I was able to leave work to go. I love my boss/friend. She is so understanding. Just talked with Kimmie and U.Al. Love that girl. Was trying to stay strong an not cry, then she started telling me about her day an being at the singing concert and Silent Night song came on. Well last year she was at the schools singing concert the same night you went with your angel. I haven't put my tree up yet. Thats been really hard for me but then you know what other reasons too, but mostly because I just can't do it yet. After mass today I felt a calming come over me like you blew a breath of fresh air on me and wrapped me in your arms and I just felt like, well it's hard to describe but I think maybe I'll put the tree up tomorrow which will be a year ago tomorrow when John an all of us put the tree up at your house with Aunt Julie. We know thats what you would of wanted and John, well, John, what can I say. I love that guy. He is special thats for sure. He made it happen. And the snowman he made just for you. Beer in one hand an gulf club in the other. You would of been so proud. Talk to Aunt Julie earlier. Was going to call her later but she called me first to see how things were going. Stayed strong for her. Almost lost it when I heard her voice but stayed strong an wanted to be with her to put my arms around her. I'm so glad she went to her mom/dads this year. They are some special people too. Aunt Julie said something about needing someone to help her drive to sc in may.Told her I would help her drive down and I would keep her company. She is adventuring out. I'm am so PROUD of her an you would be too. But you already know that. That's why you married that special lady, right??? Well will let you go. I'm sure you've been busy up there. Lots to do. I love you. Will talk to you soon. Ellie.
ReplyDeleteUncle Dave, you know the letter I sent to a select few people that I thought would need the letter and it might help them, well Uncle Harold was put off by it. OMG I never thought or even sent the letter to hurt ANYONE. I thought it might help as a let go process. A little help in healing. Boy looks whose talking. Someone that keeps coming back here talking to you. How ironic is that. But I guess thats me. I always want to try to help people but I think this one backfired on me with uncle Harold. I certainly hope Aunt Julie don't take offense to the letter. I love you guys and would never do anything to hurt anyone. But anyways. Having a Irish Christmas coffee with you right now. Love you very much and boy I bet your at some party up there right now!! Tell everyone I said Hi and love an miss them. Will talk to you again soon. LOVE YOU. ELLIE
ReplyDeleteHi Uncle Dave. Well you have certainly got your wish. Long Island is certainly getting the snow storm you wanted. They are getting it again this year. So you know Aunt Julie is still in SC with her folks. But then again maybe you planned that too along wit Gods help. So we will see if you will make it so she is there with her Mom tomorrow when she has surgery. God does have a plan doesn't he an now your in on it too. lol. Well I love you, I'm so sorry but here I go crying again. This year was really really hard for me, Don't want to let Aunt Julie know as I know its even harder for her I'm sure. Well we are blessed to have you in our lives. Blessed we have the entire family we have. If it weren't for mom an dad, I mean Gram an Gramp Pratt none of us would be here. I love them an miss them too. One thing that really sucks havin g such a wonderful big family is that each an every one of us will leave this world as we know it an each of us left behind will hurt as we are now for you. But on the flip side we all are lucky to have each other here. Well i'm at work so better get back to it. Just needed to talk to you. I'll talk again real soon I'm sure. LOVE YOU.!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteWell Uncle Dave. Your at it again. Last year two days befor your death we got the blizzard which broke the LI record of 26 inches. OMG I hadn't seen snow like that in years. Well you know A.J. is at her moms and tomorrow is her moms surgery and guess what LI is getting hit again with another blizzard. Up to 20 inches so far in NYC and it's not over with yet. So looks like maybe AJ will be stayin with her mom tomrrow. God does have a plan right.? Well just wanted to keep you up to date on the news. Of course like you didn't already know but I wanted to tell you anyways. You see I remember you once said now that your retired you don't care if you get blizzards every year cause you don't have to drive in it anymore. Hey bet your flying around in it now. And no coldness in your body. Warm as toast just watching an smiling from ear to ear i bet. Well love ya. will talk to you later.
ReplyDeleteHow you doing today? Talked to AJ this morning. Your mom in law did well in surgery and is on the mend. AJ is on her way home this morning so hope all goes well when she gets there.So the snow storm lasted just long enough. Ya know don't think AJ would like a storm every year. LOL . Hoping she has someone shoveling out the driveway while she was gone. Well Love ya an will talk to you later. LOVE ELLIE
ReplyDeleteWell Happy New Years Eve! Another year! Amazing! Wish you were here to bring it in with me. Troubles in paradise but not going to let that spoil it for me tonight. Cass isn't doing good. Can't see the kids going threw what they are going threw. Breaks my heart and the only thing left to do is call CPS an make a report. Of course won't be the first report shes had. I just hope an pray she turns around for the kids sake. I can only do so much. And as much as I love my grandkids, Dave an I just can't raise them. Sometimes I feel guilty about that but maybe she will really fight to stay straight and fight for her kids. Well enough of that for today. Can't keep losing sleep over it even thou I know it won't do me any good. So Dave an I are going out tonight to the Paddle to bring in the new year with friends. Love you u.Dave. HAPPY COTTON PICKEN NEW YEAR. HAVE FUN AT YOUR PARTY.!!!
ReplyDeleteHi U.Dave. How was the party? Mine was great. LOTS and LOTS of food. Had a good time with friends. I feel so sad for Kimmies step daughter I think she is. Anyways her son died on New yrs. they don't know what happened yet an i'm sure checking into it. So so sad. I fell bad for the whole family. Kimmie specially. Last yr the lord took you from us an this year they took her grandson. I'm sure you were there to meet him. You'll take good care of him I'm sure. oh you want to hear something funny. got notice from enterprise. I don't remember but appartently i went threw a toll booth with out paying when aj an i were in california. Well now I'm waiting for ticket to come. Just thought it was funny. Had to call aj to see if I was lossing my mind. And yes I was she remembered it. Oh well. IT IS WHAT IT IS. Right?? Boy you should see it snow. So beautiful. Big hughmungus snowflakes. Oh an last night. the falling stars were absolutly beautiful too. Of course we were in hot tub. Thought of you. Wished I could of called you an told you to look. But I'm sure you saw it an had a much better view. Well Love you U. DAve. got to go. Will talk to you soon. LOVE YOU. ELLIE
ReplyDeleteHey whats happening today with ya. Well got the ticket from toll that i went threw. Can you frigging believe it. 2.60 ticket ends up being 57.00 plus the 10.00 enterprise is charging me. Unbelievable. OH well , it is what it is. Well things here going ok. Dave still laid off. REally hard right now. But everyone is going threw the same financial problems. It allways works out one way or another. Cass is doing better. Hopefully she will see eventually that Mike is really an anchor. 8 yrs of nothing from him with her doing it all, think she's getting tired of it all. Well nothing I can do about it. She will have to figure it out for herself. Boy have I been fighting smoking again. I know cause of stress. This was a hard xmas an new year this year. We miss you so much. Maybe this first year was like a slap in the face of a touch of reality. Your gone!! As much as we would want you back there's absolutly no way thats going to happen. Our hearts hurt but then I remember how much pain you were in an am so glad you with our Lord. A much better place for you. Well once again U.Dave HUGH snowflakes!! I hope you didn't curse us with you wish for storms after you retired. Seems like this year we're getting them. Not so bad here (YET) but Syracuse and Long Island certainly got hit already. Well I'm at work, had to talk to you but I better get back to work. Love you an will talk to you again soon.
ReplyDeleteHey there U.Dave. Was so glad you took care of U.Al for us. I was worried about the headaches. But your watching over us. I'm really worried about mom. She seems to be getting worse really fast. Her breathing is scaring me. You would certainly think that would be enough to stay away from the smokes. But I guess you better than anyone else knows how hard it is to quite. I'm still struggling but still certainly have my moments. Mom,,, oh boy is going to die a hard death an I know it an thats what scares me the most is to see her like that. It's scary now when she can't get her breath. But she's doing it her way. Hard or not. Guess you can't change what is. Easy for someone to say she's causing her own pain by still smoking an yes she is but still, i don't know. You would think she would quit but who am I as I sit here an struggle with it myself. But as I see her try to breath, I don't want to try to breath when I get her age, I want to be ABLE to breath, cuz I think I would be just like her if I continue to smoke, so I STRUGGLE, I don't beat myself up if I have a couple on occasion. There's always tomorrow. It scares me. Dad, I don't know, seems like hes getting very forgetful lately. Wayne, he's hanging in there. Can't change anyone. They will do what they've always done I guess. Try to tell him. Who knows maybe he'll beat this chirrosos of the liver and live a real long time. Still with 10% of liver left, not much but for a man that does what he does with the drugs, oh well. When god is ready for him, there's nothing we can do right. Candy's in rehab. Don't know if I told you. Hope that works out too. What the heck U.Dave. I know no familys are never perfect but what the hell happened to mine. Well guess it is what it is an I can't change it. I love them just the same. Doesn't mean I have to like them or it, right.? I guess as long as people are enjoying life an not hurting anyone doing it. Life is all to short as you well know but you certainly enjoyed it an your family. Well got to look at it in a different prespective I guess. Well closing for now. LOVE YOU U.DAVE., TALK TO YOU SOON.
ReplyDeletehi U.Dave. Well things here are ok. Struggling like hell with the smokes still. Guess I have to put my mind to it an quit again. Still snowing out. Has been for the last few days. Going to get cold as hell tonight. -15 is what the weatherman calls for. Candy still in rehab. Shes doing really good. Cass is doing good. Wish she would do better but at least she is staying away from the pills. Went out last night. Went to Langbrook. It's an ok place, don't go there very often. Just decided to do something different. And it WAS. Marvin went to docs an no news. They can't figure out whats going on. Has another dr appt on the 27th with a nuerolgist an hes going to see what he says. if nothing new or no results from him he is finially going to get a second opion from doctors in massachets. Thank goodness, was hoping he would of done this earlier but will see what happens. I'm praying so bad that it will be something easy to fix an nothing serious. My heart goes out to him. To be in pain all the time is something you wouldn't want to wish on your enemy. And mom is finially going to see a pulmonary specalist to see if they can do something for her. Shes also in pain all the time too. Oh an Ronnie an Gary. Well Gary lost his mom as you well know. She was such a good person. I liked her alot. Going to see aj soon. Don't want to travel in the snow thou so i'm sure it will be sometime in march or april. Daves still laid off. But luckly they past the extension for unemployment. If they hadn't done that let me tell you we would be hurting. And the price of gold can you believe it. I can't get over how low it is. Wish it would skyrocket so we can sell. Got to get rid of that payment. Well guess I'll go play some wii. Nothing better to do on this snowy cold day. Love ya, talk to you again soon. love ya.
ReplyDeleteHi there U.Dave. Miss you. Wish I was with AJ. Would like to go see you right now. Missing you terriably right now. Well here I go again. Trying to stop smoking again. Got a pack of smokes thurs an lasted me till sunday. Pretty good but the trouble is if I continue I know i'll be back to a pack a day. Plus the price of smokes. 10.00 a pack. who in the heck can afford it any more besides my health witch is of course the most important, but it's so so hard to stay a non smoker. I hate fighting it all the time. IT SUCKS. I feel like a failure.i feel like i'm letting people who love me an care i'm letting down. But I guess the good news is I keep trying to stop. well I love you u.dave. guess I'll just keep trying. Thats all I can do, right. well love you. will talk to you later.
ReplyDeleteHi U.Dave. Sorry haven't been around. Lots been going on. Having to deal with Cass. But she made it threw an hopefully things will go much better for her now. maybe she hit rock bottom this time. All I can do is hope an pray this was the bottom for her. Talk about stress. OMG but I also made it threw. She's the only one that can make the change an all I can do is try to be there to support her. She says she's leaving Mike but I can' trust her word. It will be a long time befor I can do that. I've had a headache all week but that will get better too. Boy talk about winter. You really put the jenks on us. We are gettin snow an blowing like crazy. Winter storm watch till tomorrow morning. Didn't go into work today cuz of it. Will make the day up on friday thou. Well for now will let you go. Love you bunches. Will ttul. Love ya.
ReplyDeleteHey U. Dave, hows it going? things here are going ok. still working on cass. think she has decided that mike's not it. Guess she's waiting for him to figure out what he's going to do or go. She says he agrees that they just weren't meant to be so hopefully thats what really happens. I know it won't be easy for her an we will help as much as we can. give her breaks from the kids cuz i know she will need it. But hope she don't go to extremes. She has to realize that they are whats important right now. It's not about her it's about them. Oh well, all i can do is help with the kids and do what i can to help her. As I've told her she is not the only single mother out there. She can do it as she's been doing it for 8 yrs already on her own. Well hate to tell ya cause you already now. I'm smoking again. I really am going to try to quit again but now just doesn't seem to be the right time. Marvin is going to go to mass an get another opion from docs there. I'm so glad. He's going to come here in NY for 3 days after he is done with ma. That will be really cool to see him. Hope he can make the trip thou. I'm worried about that. He will be bringing Cas with him.I'm excitedto see them both. Wish they were bringing the girls too but not this time. When he stops in ma he is going to see if the boys want to come up to NY with him. Would be nice to see them again. Hope so but we will see. Not sure if they can get time off work. Well U.D. will talk to you again soon. LOVE YOU BUNCHES AN MISS YOU.
ReplyDeleteWell things haven't changed much with cass. I know I have to do something for myself. I have to learn to disassociate my feeling from cass. I have night mares at night an wake up crying in the morning. So afraid that I'm losing my daughter. Thats the absoulute worse thing. She being here in this world but not really being here. All I can do is keep praying for her. She made it threw the suicide attempt. Hopefully that don't happen again. Stayed at the hospital with her threw the night. She did some kidney damage an doc says she's lucky she's not on kidney machine. Well for now got to get back to work. So will talk to you later. Love you much.
ReplyDeleteHi U.D. Things here have been interesting lately. Boy do I think I'm going crazy. As a mother you don't want to see things like this but on the other hand I have to let God wrap her in his blanket an take over. It's killing me but there is nothing I can do for her. She knows she has a problem but can't seem to get to the right spot in her heart to do anything about it. I've gotten so tired of having nightmares at night an waking up in the morning knowing in my heart that I've lost my daughter. It kills me to think that an to have those feelings an my heart is aching for the children. I've come to the conclusion that I have to go to AlonAnon. I have to do something so that I can have some what of a normal life for myself and Dave. I just don't know what else to do. Only God will decide. I can't sleep at night an I'm hoping these meetings will help me. Specially having other people there with similar situations, problems what ever they are at least they understand what I'm going threw and they hopefully can help me to live threw it or past it. It's so dam hard to see your child do what she's doing. I see her dying every day and it's just breaking my heart in two. I will hopefully learn how to detach my emotional side from her, not detach myself from her but my emotional side. I'm hoping that will help. I can't worry about what she's doing or who she stool from. I can only do so much and then learn to turn away. I have to start thinking about Dave an I and the rest of my kids an grandkids. It just seems I'm so consumed with hekping her an intellectually I know there's nothing I can do about the steeling, lies and deciets that she does to get what she needs. I know this and I know I can't fix it. I can't change it and I can't heal her. She has to do that on her own. I just hope an pray she does something soon befor it's to late for her an her children. Well I just wanted to vent. Hopefully next time I talk to you I have better news. Please keep a close eye on her Uncle Dave. Show her the path. She is so lost right now. And I don't know what to do anymore. I do have to give AJ a call tonight. I haven't talked to her in almost two weeks. Boy thats the longest I ever went talking to her since you left us to your mansion. I LOVE YOU UNCLE DAVE. MISS YOU BUNCHES.
ReplyDeleteHi there U D. Well things haven't changed much with Cass. All I can do is pray. Yesterday was an offial day. Just can't believe what happened with her and what she did. It's terriable how the addict thinks. Skemming to get what you need. Its so so bad, and to even go as low as to do it to family is even worse. I'm beside myself but also to the point where I'm going to tell her not to come to our home until she is clean. Her brother has done everthing to help her and she riped him off. I still can't believe it even typing the words. It's beyond my comprehesion. I'm still praying for the best. She says she wants to go to detox but I know in my heart that detox won't be enough for her. She really needs to go to a 90 day program. I know in her head she don't want to leave the kids for that long. She's afraid, of what I'm not sure. Mike sure can't take care of them. But all I can do is pray.
ReplyDeleteWell Marv was up with Cassie, his girl friend and his boys, Matt, Pat and they're girlfriends came. They are such a good family and Cassie is good for Marvin. He hasn't changed much health wise since AJ an I saw in in Aug. but I don't think hes gotten any worse either. The dr's apt he had in Mass didn't work out. Dr was out on er call an wanted to reschedule but of course he couldn't as he was flying back to CA on tuesday. We all had a great time. Had a cook out for Dads b'day on Saturday. All the family was there. It was wonderfull to have us all together. Marv says he's coming back in the summer sometime. Cassie's 40th b'day is june 3, she wants me to go down for that. Of course I will have to see if Dave gets back to work. Boy I'm telling ya this past year has absolutly been the worse for us in a long time. We always seem to find a way to make it thou.
Well ud going to close for now. Got to get ready for work so I LOVE YOU and will talk to you again soon. "With God anything is possible, without him nothing is" Thanks AJ.
Well Cass is back at Coniford Park, she says she is going to stay for the 30 days rehab after detox. I hope she does. NOt going to tell her what Mike said. Of course he's an AssHole. Still blaming everything on everyone else as usuall. Says he's not going to stay. Says she'll just come back an lie and do the same shit all over again. Well ya know what he's is just as bad. He does drugs too but he can't face that fact as he doesn't think he has a problem. Oh well hope he does leave. Cass would be much better off without him. I can understand him not understandig and trusting in Cass an thinking she will do the same as befor, but if you love someone as much as he says he does then he should be supportive an he certainly isn't. All he wants is for her to be home so she can run for drugs an make sure he has a place to live. She's made sure of that the past 8 yrs. WHEN IS SHE GOING TO WAKE UP!!! I hope this is it. I know sometimes part of recoverer is failure an I can only hope an pray this will be her last failure. I'm sick over the kids. Dave an I can only do so much. We do have Julie but didn't want to take all the kids. We felt Mike needed to step up an be a dad an be responsibe. Well we will see how that all works out. He told me yesterday he was going to leave. I truly hope he does. Dave an I have talked an hopefully cass won't loose the apt she has in mo'town. We will keep the kids till she gets back and hopefully Mike will truly be gone for good. We have told her this is the last time but here we go again. What the HELL. I just don't know what to do anymore or where to really draw the line. I'm just praying she has hit the bottom an reaizes she needs to get her shit straight for the children an for her self.
ReplyDeleteWell going to close for now. Love you. ttul.
Hey U.D. hows things there. Hi A.Diana, Bet your smiling now with U>D. Both of you's with the rest of the family are happy an safe an doing so much better than here but we sure do miss yas. So glad your there A.Diana. Your so much better off. Bet you were happy to leave this world yesterday. We will all be there to be together some day soon. This life on earth isn't very long. Well love you guys. );Do miss yas. Things with Cass are going GREAT. Couldn't ask for anything better for her right now. She did finially leave Mike. Thank goodness. I just hope she stays strong an never takes him back. She has her family around her now an is loving it. Now she sees what it's all about without drugs and I'm so happy. Well better get to work. Love yas all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
ReplyDeleteHI U DAVE, MERRY XMAS, WELL TODAY DOING SOME NO BAKE OATMEAL COOKIES, POPCORN BALLS AN RICE CRISPIE TREATS WITH CASS AN HER KIDS. CASS IS LIVING WITH US TILL KIDS GET OUT OF SCHOOL. SHE IS DOING REALLY GOOD. PROUD OF HER. WENT TO U.HAROLDS LAST NIGHT. GLAD I DID. HE HAD THE SINGING XMAS BEAR YOU GOT HIM OUT AN WAS SINGING HIS HEART OUT. GAVE HIM A BIG HUG. THINK HE NEEDED IT. BUT SO DID I. GLAD AJ IS IN SC WITH HER MOM AN DAD. TALKED TO HER YESTERDAY. BOY SHE SURE DOES MISS YOU!! AS WE ALL DO. XMAS JUST ISN'T THE SAME. MY SPECIAL XMAS IS WHEN YOU AN AJ SURPRISED US IN 2008. THAT WAS SO SPECIAL. I LOVE YOU AN MISS YOU BUNCHES. WELL BETTER GET GOING. KIDS ARE READY TO DO THE CRISPIE TREATS NOW. DID THE POPCORN BALLS, SO WE ARE GOING TO TO THE CRISPIE TREATS NOW THEN THE NO BAKE COOKIES. I LOVE YOU AN MISS YOU BUNCHES. TTUL.
ReplyDeletegood morning. up early this morning. any other time the kids would be up at 6 but this morning they are still sleeping and its almost 7:30. can't believe it!! Soon enough though. They'll be up soon, THEN, noise noise noise. It's only xmas eve but its xmas here. santa stopped here last night. tomorrow morning will be a inlaws for xmas. Having @2 irish coffee. Love you UD. Wish you were here. Miss AJ too. need to see her soon. Miss her bunchs. Don't know whats going on with my back but I started having pains n lower back now it mid back and right shoulder. Maybe its just a cold in the back. Can't go to drs yet. trying to get other ins. Daves ins from work ran out. Hes still laid off so ins ran out. been off work about yr an half now. Sucks but working threw it. Well tell everyone I said merry xmas and I love them all. will ttul. LOVE YA
ReplyDeleteHi U.D. whats happening, going to u.h today. its his b;day but you know that. going to celebrate with him at nigs tonight. cass is going with me. we plan on having a good time. he doesnt want me to say to anyone that its his b'day but we will see what happens, maybe towards the end of the night i will say somethng to the band but then it will be time to go. well got to go for now, love ya an talk to ya later.
ReplyDeletehey there my u.dave. wanted to wish u a merry xmas. miss you. can't believe its 3yrs already. wish u were here to celebrate with us all. irish coffee for u today as i do every yr. love an miss u. MERRY CHRISTMAS.
ReplyDeleteHi Uncle Dave. Miss you bunches. Today is a bad day for me. For some reason I feel so lost, I posted that on FB and just as I did a picture of you showed up. Kimmie must of posted it but it was just so weird. She must be missing you terrible to. After seeing your pic it helped. Going to see Aunt Julie for Thanksgiving. I miss her too. It will be fun. Having thanksgiving over at Gary an Ronnies so it will be fun. Taking my MaCalla with me too. I think she is looking forward to it. Think we will be goin to NYC wed night to see the balloons for macy parade get blown up. That will be pretty cool. Can't believe it. 4yrs. I know your still with us and will always be. I know you've been around me a lot lately. Went threw a lot this year but things are all ok. Got to get my Irish coffee going pretty soon here. Well I love an miss you. Talk to you again soon.
ReplyDeleteHey Uncle Dave. I'll have to call Aunt Julie. It was her I think that posted that pic and the weirdest of all a close friend that past from cancer last year a pic of him also showed up. What are you guys trying to tell me. " Things will be ok!! " I love you guys.
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